So much time.
Time dragged on like no other while I was cashiering today, at least. What with 3rd quarter of Senior year ending and Spring break beginning, time seems like an immense void in front of me. As the college acceptances roll in, I can see time extending into different directions, paths, possibilities, extending itself into whole different lives of which one I can be a part.
When the first out-of-state acceptance letter arrived, it nearly knocked the wind out of me–not because the acceptance surprised me (it was a safety school), but because of the realization that I’m officially moving on across the country. My life will soon extend outside my familiar Southern-California-centric bubble. Yet as time stretches before me, it suddenly occurs to me that time is ticking away faster than I ever thought possible in the only moment that really matters: the present.
Cliché as it may be, there is no time like the present. If there is one lesson I have learned after the trials and tribulations of the year past (perhaps a certain post I wrote a few months back will be a refresher to you all), it definitely is that. Soon, I’ll be away from the comfort of my cozy room, sleeping in a twin bed, sharing a dorm with some other stranger who may become a new best friend. Soon, I’ll be saying “see you soon” (never “goodbye”) to coworkers, to friends, to Girlfriend, to Mom. Soon, I’ll be wishing that I was back in high school, back in college, back in medical school, back in my twenties, my thirties, forties, back in some state of being or another, wishing that time would reverse itself if only for instant–or at least, it will seem like it was soon when it comes.
For now, I’ll take everything that comes to me in stride, one step at a time; and as I look forward towards the immense journey in front of me, it’ll be nice to take those moments to stop, think, relax, perhaps make something time intensive that I’ve never tried making before (see recipe below 😉 ). As I have said before, cherish the moments and people you have now–jump forward when you’re ready.
But for me? Not yet. All in due time.